My head reels with the stinging pain of last night’s events.
Thoughts of you caused me to become disobedient.
At least this time it was a strong dose of alcohol.
You always said I would forever be your babydoll.
I remember a time when you loved with such passion.
You said no woman you’ve loved would fair in comparison.
The adoration you gave me was overwhelming.
I didn’t see the wound inside you festering.
I’ll never forget your white boy face and deep brown eyes.
Mystic, somber pools of emotion that terrifies.
Something behind them obsessed your heart and inner soul.
I felt myself helplessly falling onto a black hole.
I often think back to what you said pushed you to the edge.
That even a mere glance of me was your sole privilege.
Your possessiveness and insults made me such a wreck.
I saw the love in your heart through the marks on my neck.
I tried to leave but you wouldn’t pardon my release.
Hunting me down wherever I went to find inner peace.
You thought you couldn’t exist without having me.
There was no way in your mine I’d ever be free.
I finally decided I had to end this fate.
The pain and suffering wouldn’t let me hesitate.
I still feel your haunting stare upon me behind the shadows.
But at least I know it was coming from the gallows.
© Ilex ~ Midwestern Plant Girl